BENJEEHOWARD LYRICS

[verse 1]
I'm breaking hearts
It's just for show
Can't retract the bullet hole
I put through your stomach
My ego is righteous

[Chorus]
Forgive and forget
Can you blame me
I guess
Put one foot on the gas
One inside of my chest
It's a complex
Reset
Reversal request
Can't change who I've been
I'll let them down in the end

[verse 2]
I can't fix the damage that I've done
I built a grave inside a garden
Now you're buried in my thoughts
With the old me
I can't fix thе damage that I've done
I built a caskеt from a memory
Now you're buried in my thoughts
With the old me
I can't fix the damage that I've done
I built a casket from a memory
Now you're buried

[Chorus]
Forgive and forget
Can you blame me
I guess
Put one foot on the gas
One inside of my chest
It's a complex
Reset
Reversal request
Can't change who I've been
I'll let them down in the end

[bridge]
I can't fix the damage that I've done
Keeper of the let down
Now you're buried in my thoughts
And I'm on shaky ground
I can't fix the damage that I've done
Keeper of the let down
Now you're buried in my thoughts
And I'm on shaky ground

[Chorus]
Forgive and forget
Can you blame me
I guess
Put one foot on the gas
One inside of my chest
It's a complex
Reset
Reversal request
Can't change who I've been
I'll let them down in the end
Forgive and forget
Can you blame me
I guess
Put one foot on the gas
One inside of my chest
It's a complex
Reset
Reversal request
Can't change who I've been
I'll let them all fucking down in the end

[Chorus]
I grew roots
They're 12 feet deep
I wish I had the energy
To dig them up
I'm all out of luck
The damage it was psychologic
Water's dirty, fucking rotten
What a rough
Little patch to get through

[verse 1]
My friends and I we moved back home
Just like we said we never would
Driving past the football field
Where we got drunk the summer of our junior year

[breakdown]
Takes me back to 17
In the backseat of Ryan's car
Cody's crying
Girlfriend broke his heart
We were sitting on that covered bridgе
Just some kids
Trying to figure out who we arе

[bridge]
But it was just beginning
Goddamn it felt like it was ending
Goddamn it felt like it was ending

[Chorus]
I grew roots
They're 12 feet deep
I wish I had the energy
To dig them up
I'm all out of love
The damage it was psychologic
Water's dirty, fucking rotten
What a rough
Little patch to get through

[verse 2]
My friends and I we moved back home
Just like we said we never would
Driving past the football field
Where we got drunk the summer of our junior year

[breakdown]
Takes me back to 17
In the backseat of Ryan's car
Cody's crying
Girlfriend broke his heart
We were sitting on that covered bridge
Just some kids
Trying to figure out who we are

[bridge]
But it was just beginning
Goddamn it felt like it was ending
Goddamn it felt like it was ending
Goddamn it felt like it was ending

[Chorus]
I grew roots
They're 12 feet deep
I wish I had the energy
To dig them up
I'm all out of love
I'm all out of luck
I'm all out of love
I'm all out of luck
I'm all out

[outro]
The damage it was psychologic
The water's dirty, fucking rotten
The damage it was psychologic
The water's dirty, fucking rotten

[chrous]
There's nothing here
It's wasteland fears
Four-way stop from driving on forever
I think it might be better (I think it might be better)
Than backroad driving
Signal's out
This rotten water's got me feeling sick
It's got me feeling down
It's got me feeling down

[verse]
Your hometown heroes
They made state!
Got 'em hitched
At the ripe age of 18
Let's just start a family
The generations stacking up
Your cycles never end, they just re-up
On traditional values
Seeking permanent refuge

[chrous]
There's nothing here
It's wasteland fears
Four-way stop from driving on forever
I think it might be better (I think it might be better)
Than backroad driving
Signal's out
This rotten water's got me feeling sick
It's got me feeling down
It's got me feeling down

[breakdown 1]
Aren't you tired
Of only knowing what you're taught to know?
Can't you see
This town was built to keep you in a chokehold?
Your dad, he owns the corner store
Your grandpa's got the funeral home
Your mom, she left, it caused a scene
Packed your bags and couldn't leave
You gave your best
It's not enough
You can't believe the lies they shove
Down your throat
It rots your brain
Don't you want to run away?

[chrous]
There's nothing here
It's wasteland fears
Four-way stop from driving on forever
I think it might be better (I think it might be better)
Than backroad driving
Signal's out
This rotten water's got me feeling sick
It's got me feeling down
It's got me feeling down

[breakdown 2]
Aren't you tired
Of only knowing darkness at an echo?
Can't you see
This rotten water's got you in a chokehold?
In a chokehold

[intro]
In retrospect it all makes sense
A bar that's empty heaven sent
A bar so low already dead
Reference tables turn on idle heads
Spent my whole life wishing I was dead
Came and flipped a switch I didn't know I had
Taught me to forgive and to forget

[Chorus]
I don't want to lose
This freefall feeling keeping me alive
I'd give you my last dollar if it meant
I could waste your time
Waste some of mine
Throw me a line

[bridge]
I've been feeling extra sick
In my head it's oil slick
This medicine it doesn't fill
The acres absence that you left
In my hands, it's crumbling
The life we built on painted glass
In my hands, it's crumbling
Something borrowed never lasts

[Chorus]
I don't want to lose
This freefall feeling keeping me alive
I'd give you my last dollar if it meant
I could waste your time
Waste some of mine
Throw me a line

[outro]
In retrospect it all makes sense
A bar that's empty heaven sent
A bar so low already dead
Reference tables turn on idle heads

[intro]
Why do I feel I've been losing my mind?
Can't get a grip, quick, turning timelines
Shadow of who I was, it lingers in the room
Point a finger, but there's no fucking use
Hard to tell when the monster is you
Point it out
It looks just like you

[Chorus]
Watch me fall, I'm freaking out
You've got the gun, I'm bleeding now
Blank stare up from the ground
Is this what you dreamt about?
No love lost
No love found
Wish we could've worked it out
I'll call a truce let's make amends
In this world I'm heaven sent

[verse 1]
Turn a page like an open book
The one that you kept on the shelf
You nеver learned to annotatе
Or ration your thoughts for yourself
Now I wear your coat like armor
A pessimist by lack and nurture
Hear your words play in my brain
Like you're singing them through my car speakers

[pre-Chorus]
Point it out it looks just like you
Point it out it looks just like

[Chorus]
Watch me fall, I'm freaking out
You've got the gun, I'm bleeding now
Blank stare up from the ground
Is this what you dreamt about?
No love lost
No love found
Wish we could've worked it out
I'll call a truce let's make amends
In this world I'm heaven sent

[bridge]
In this world I'm heaven sent
This looks like a dream i had
I fell asleep while I was waking
I took a hard hit at 21 (In this world I'm heaven sent)
My mind is made up, but I'm second guessing
Is my glass still half full? (This looks like a dream I had)
I fell asleep while I was waking
I took a hard hit at 21 (In this world I'm heaven sent)
My mind is made up, but I'm second guessing
Is my glass still half full? (This looks like a dream I had)
I fell asleep while I was waking (I need to schedule some time)
I took a hard hit at 21 (to relax, not that you asked)
(In this world I'm heaven sent)
My mind is made up, but I'm second guessing
(I need to schedule some time)
Is my glass still half full? (to relax, not that you asked)
(This looks like a dream I had)

[outro]
21, it came and went
Turned my life up on it's head
I'll do better, I'll do better
This looks like a dream I had
No love lost
No love found
This time will be different now
I've called a truce
Let's raise a glass
In this world I'm heaven sent
Watch me fall, I'm freaking out (I need)
You've got the gun, I'm bleeding now (to schedule some time to)
Blank stare up from the ground (relax)
Is this what you dreamt about? (Not that you asked)
No love lost (I)
No love found (need)
Wish we could've worked it out (to schedule some time)
I'll call a truce let's make amends (to relax)
In this world I'm heaven sent (not that you asked)
I feel asleep while I was waking
I took a hard hit at 21

[Chorus 1]

Figures that this hope is fading
Fear the doubt is never ending
I’ve been looking for another
Point of view

Ricochet and cast the line up
In your head it’s melodrama
Shifting blame is nothing but a
New excuse

[Post-Chorus]

You should take your own advice
I’m trying to find it
You should take your own advice
Answers inside my mind

[Verse 1]

Miscalculated lines are blurring
Ashes on the front porch, stirring
In the wind the cigarette
Smoke is burning up our lungs

I can hear the floorboards creak
Leaky faucet drowning me
Reminisce when we were kids
We thought we wanted this

They don’t teach this shit in college
Maxed out card and past due balance
I can’t do my fucking taxes

[Chorus 2]

Figures that this hope is fading
Fear the doubt is never ending
I’ve been looking for another point of view

Ricochet and cast the line up
In your head it’s melodrama
Shifting blame is nothing but
A new excuse

Don’t know shit about it
Can’t pay my rent
Don’t know shit about it
Maxed out card and past due balance

[Bridge]

Fuck

I’m crashing out
I’m breaking down
I’m overwhelmed

Trying to find it
Inside my mind it’s
Dollar signs and proving useless

Send me some help
Where’s my hand out?
They don’t teach this shit in college

[Outro]

Don’t know shit about it
Can’t pay my rent
Don’t know shit about it
Maxed out card and past due balance

Don’t know shit about it
Don’t know shit about it
Don’t know shit about it

I can’t do my fucking taxes

[Chorus]

I’m starting to think
It would be better if 
We took a break
I’m feeling sick
Way inside
Maybe you could hold me
When it all ends tonight
Maybe then I’d feel alright

Burnt a hole in all my hopes
All that I knew
Thought I’d be better
By now but it’s raining 
It’s raining out
There's a balcony I’m thinking
If you wanna get away
This music’s kinda loud
My head I think, it’s spinning out
Smoke it starts to clear
My heart pounds straight from my chest
Take another hit and tell me
Baby just relax

[Chorus]

I’m starting to think
It would be better if 
We took a break
I’m feeling sick
Way inside
Maybe you could hold me
When it all ends tonight
Maybe then I’d feel alright

And the pendulum it swings
I’m only scared when you're lonely
Bend backwards, floorboard it breaks
Your neck I think, there’s more than this
Rake a couple dollars
This guy he’s on the street
I’d give him my last hit If I thought you weren't looking
At me
God why are you looking at me

[Chorus]

I’m starting to think
It would be better if 
We took a break
I’m feeling sick
Way inside
Maybe you could hold me
When it all ends tonight
Maybe then I’d feel alright